Tuesday, April 30, 2013

       Feeling out of control is probably one of the worst feelings that a human is capable of experiencing.
You feel everything and nothing all at once. Everything you're taught to do in a crisis, all the judgement you're trained and ingrained with. All the steps to make informed decisions. All the steps to solve all your problems. None of that matters. You're taught steps to prevent and solve all sorts of unthinkable disasters from when you're young. Stop, look, and listen before crossing the road to avoid getting hit by a car. If you get lost in the woods, hug a tree and blow your whistle. If you're stuck in quicksand, lean back and float up. But what can you do when everything is spiraling out of control and you're stopping, looking desperately back and forth, trying to listen over the roar of your life falling apart but you still get hit. Harder. Harder. Over and over. You're lost in the vast forest of confusion clinging to a tree for dear life and blowing your whistle, screaming, crying out with all your might but no one saves you. You're sinking lower and lower into this never ending abyss and you're trying to lean back but you're being swallowed up by the earth. Nothing you do can change what's happening and everything and nothing is happening all at once.
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Freely falling into absolute nothingness and you're holding your breath waiting to hit rock bottom but it never seems to come.

This feeling of being completely helpless happens to everyone. Whether it's depression gripping your life and dragging you further and further away from sanity, or a series of unfortunate events that seem to bombard you relentlessly. When plans for our lives fail, and we're stuck spiraling, holding our breath, there's only one thing to do. Breathe. Breathe and cling for your life to the one thing that will never fail. The one person, that will never leave or forsake us. The one person who knows when we do hit rock bottom, we have the ability to dust ourselves off and climb the rugged walls. When we're lost in the forest of uncertainty, there is one tree we should cling to. The tree on which Jesus died. For no matter what in our lives changes, God is never changing.  We won't make it out of the abyss unscathed, but He's an incredible healer. So Stop, Look, and Listen for God in the chaos. Cling to him for dear life and cry out his name. Lean back on him and allow him to raise you back up. We might fall, but God will not fail.

Isaiah 41: 13
For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you


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